Epoch Revisited

Song Today-Today
Feeling the real need to blog lately and decided that I will stop resisting. Everything smells like a baby for some reason, like everything I smell my brain goes, "hmmm... baby?" It is really strange. I have been feeling quite turbulent lately. Everything is coming to an end and summer will soon begin. Many friendships I have built this year will be fading and a lot of work is to be turned in. I am trying to come to terms with myself and my approval/disapproval of my actions. I KNOW I cannot stray from him, that is the only component I am positive about. I need to be more aware of my actions and the effect it will have upon people around me. Sometimes I begin to believe that I am someone that I am not. Identity issues. I do and say things that I later look back to and wonder what in the world I was thinking. My computer ALWAYS want to be updated and I'm like "be content with who you are dude." I am going to leave this in one extremely long paragraph. I am about to graduate high school. Am I ready for the real world? Do I need to quit my job at Chick-Fil-A? Cindy, Leigh and I went to Epoch again today. We conversed about the changes in our lives and what will soon be occurring within all of us. I had chi and love-cake. Cindy was fasting so she just had ginger tea. Leigh had a root beer. We revisited topics that we had delved into last time. We touched upon the righteous jealousy of God and the gentleness of his love. Survival of the fittest. Does fittest apply to the body, mind and soul? Will I survive? It seems to be a trend among high schoolers to move on after high school. To grow up if you will. But do people actually do that? I feel I should be preparing myself for rebirth. Am I the only one who lives among the dead? Car? Crying and violence is always the answer. And action figures. Those three things will solve all of your problems. Maybe even that 3 month problem. This remedy is also quite helpful in broken friendships and moldy bread. I am only a slice of cheese awaiting the entrance to your stomach. Open up to me and you will see great things. Possibly. But if you do not open who will ever open? Is it the sword that gets to you? Or the rhinoceros? It is the lemon pie living beneath my basement that you are truly afraid of, is it not? For the wages of sin is death and I don't wanna die. I wanna live life forever. I am self-centered to the max and I cannot seem to find the key. That one that goes to my heart. I cannot be in a relationship with someone because I cannot share with them the problem of me. Stugglin homies. I beez strugglin.

TDC

Rick Shean

Love Aesthetics

Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that ruin the vineyards, our vineyards that are in bloom.

Song of Solomon 2:15