I do not know what I have been doing these days. I got a haircut- obviously. I chill all the time, maybe a little bit too much. I go to ACC every Tuesday and Thursday. I work at Chick-fil-a. Trying to keep up with school. Moving forwards and backwards through time. I do not know if this is going to make sense. I have started writing straight from my head. Whatever.
Sometimes I think that I should convert to nihilism and forget everything. But... I am not so sure. I try to think about everything and stay as far away from being unctuous as possible. But as my U.S. History teacher loves to say, "nothing pains man more than having to think." I now know the quote is Martin Luther King Jr.'s, gosh that man was incredible. "Who doubts that this toughness of mind is one of man's greatest needs? Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking. There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked solutions. Nothing pains some people more than having to think.” But I love to think, that is the strange thing. Sometimes I catch myself going through the motions of life and never stopping and contemplating what is going on. I feel as if my life has been bowdlerized by myself, making me less effective in everything I say or do. I get stuck in quotidian, blue. I try to think, but my brain becomes jejune. Gauche. Feckless. Fatuous. Facetious. I mean I have known about these vocabulary quizzes since last May and I am just now making flashcards to study? I made my friend a cup in August and have yet to send it? I promised another friend of mine that I would make him a dreamcatcher in November and I have only watched 30 seconds of the DIY Dreamcatcher video? Who am I? Or a better question, who do I think I am?
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1
